DEAD LIKE ME

For once i'm actually laying down, the world is still and in my control and although life currently is not making much sense, I feel calm. I feel relaxed to know I have people who care, It feels good to feel sad and alone like this.
It reminds me that i'm a human being even though this feeling is almost unbareble like bad heart burn or something.
I'm sitting here watching dead like me on hulu and attempting to fall asleep, I miss sleeping alone in my bed, I miss sleeping with my dog.
I have no more money to spend, I have to save up for england, I have to start selling my stuff that I just cannot take with me, including my bike and possibly my sewing machine and all i wanna do is go and buy some new summer clothes.
My rooms a mess and i'm totally taking into account your surroundings reflect your mind.
I need to stop thinking so much, maybe stop caring so much as well and get my shit together.
England in 48 days, i will be happy.
xo