BUT I MUST CONFESS WHATS IN MY HEAD.

" i really wanted to apologize for everything ___. i really do and im sorry about you and ___ too.

i know i fucked with your head and would disappear for awhile but it wasn't on purpose or anything personal to you at all. its just work and the passing of my ____ has been getting to me as well.

and since what you said earlier about boyfriend and girlfriend, i don't know if you were serious or not but i really would like to before you ___.

if you don't think i can do it then i don't blame you for thinking that but you have been one of my best girl friends for years and i want to spend a lot of time with you before you go, even if you don't want the title of "boy friend and girlfriend" i still want to spend a lot of time with you.

i love you so much "

sometimes i sit and think, about everything that has gone on in my life,
why certain people come in my life.
why certain people are STILL in my life.
but its nice to know there will always be that person that has your back and loves you no matter what.
what am i so nervous about? i feel like a five year old.
i leave in like 45 days. holy shit shit shit, awesome.
"you are more beautiful in a white dress then Cinderella."
swoooooooooooooooooooooooooon.